Me without you

I wish I had permision to like you. I wish you were real, the way you look at me , the way you talk to me ,... but you are not. This love, this affection is not allowed , so we should stop it, right now... I do not feel well, I am sad, rejecred, desperate ,alone ...

A good friend who I really felt understood me. Undoubtedly we were good, we laughed a lot of things to laugh at, a lot of things to talk about, a lot of activities to do intandemn...

But now, all this things must come to an end, , why?! Because I dont wantto be a traitor, I do not want that some one else be jealous of me, I do not want to ruin a life

But why?! Why the one who cares a lot about others is me?! Why my feelings are not as much as important fo them?! Why I am always afraid of loosing some one?! Why!?

:(((( 

PS:

این حال من بی تو، عصار